I fear I'm turning into dust...

I fear I'm turning into dust from Spardha Malik on Vimeo.

because the night is ours...

but love..

A mighty pain to love it is,
and 'tis a pain that pain to miss;
but of all the pains, the greatest pain
is to love, but love in vain.

Abraham Crowley

Waiting for Amber

It will fade in a week.
When India appears and reappears
I’ll lean across a country
with my hands outstretched
longing for the unknown girl
in the neon bazaar



Part of the poem - An Unknown Girl by Moniza Alvi

Spiders

dreams are made winding through my head,

through my head,

before you know,

i will be waiting all awake.

Spiders - System of a Down

born of free will

Oh young soul, open your eyes
See the colors and the blinding lights
Feel the edges, brutal and sharp
Your spirit is untamed and energy unbound.

This world was waiting for your arrival.

City of Dreams

When sand ran through his hands,

in her hair it got stuck,

the evening started at nine,

in the background of traffic thump,

the nights, they never came,

and sleep was unheard of,

it was called the city of dreams,

in this city we once met.

Where train timings were our only villains,

And love was measured by auto fare,

It was the city of freedom,

where life was drenched in salty air.

The raindrops came unannounced,

and kept pouring down for months.

They said it was the city of dreams,

in this city, we once met.

Our lives ran on just three tracks,

We were lost in east and west,

And every day was like yesterday,

you were the pawn, I was the jest,

we were lost in this city of dreams,

and you did what you had to do,

If its still that city of dreams,

This is where I’ll wait for you.

Perfectly satisfied.

Sometimes..

Not today, but every once in a while

When I’m alone

When I’m blank

Not happy, not sad

Just perfectly satisfied.

No guilt from the past

No idea how long I’ll last

Just a veil of glorious nothingness

Enveloping me

Teasing me

And perfectly satisfied

It’s the end of the day

Or the peak of the night

Doesn’t matter if the moon shines

Or if the sun is walking by

Here, beneath this sky tonight

I lie perfectly satisfied.

You were here once

May be you’re still around

If you want to, if you can

Come, sit a while

I’ll share this moment with you..

..When I’m perfectly satisfied.

The Game

Let’s play a game today

The one we played in school

I’ll arrange some random words

U’ll have to find them a meaning

Don’t try too hard to find

I’ll keep it easy this first time

Friend, we, instantly, were

Years, many, gone, by

Better, we, now, each other, know

Things, few, my, on, mind, are

Are u getting what I’m sayin

Or r u baffled by this rhyme?

rides, music, rum, insomnia

Outlining the wasted times

the smoke, nights, speed, laughter

and the never ending fights

the chemistry lessons, the vapor shift,

simple words.. I hope u get the drift!

Chasing, running, connecting, forgetting

U, know, I, hope, at, what, I’m, getting

May not be perfect, I, and, are, neither, you

Lets spend the time guessing what got us through

Better, life may be, when, are, u, by my side

Lets take it slow, lets see what we find!

The games we played.. many

This was the last one

Was it nice one, my dear?

Did you read the words? was it fun?

So tell me now

How long will it take

for you to make sense of

this last string of words i make...

I…… You…… Love…

(yes, i'm corny sometimes)

He reads me..

he was gone
but never really was
he was with me
but never really mine
he was known
but i never could know him
he touched
but i could never feel him
he is gone
but when was he near?

random 3

The forgiver, he said he was
for he had nothing else to give
forgiveness was the only precious thing
he was left with, to give meQ

I took it, teary eyed
but never found a use for it
The shelf space was occupied
by the mementos left by sorrow and guilt

his last gift, stayed wrapped,
I never could open it
I my darkest hours,
I wanted to wrap myself in its enveloping light
...... But I never could!

nowayneverever!!

Never letting you go.... never ever EVER!
there's just no way...
even if in my dreams,
i'll keep u with me.

Till morning light creeps in.. ur safe in the darkness of my mind.

idontknowwhati'mthinking!

far away from home... a new life, new beginning, heck.... even a new career.
yet same old thoughts of reminiscent past find a way back to my mind
I don't know what is it about that time that i can't escape it
What if? what could happen? will it happen? .... my mind plays tricks on me
there's light at the end of the tunnel or may be its a mirage
I'll wait and watch to see what happens... thats the best i can.